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Slow Death - A Celebration of Self​-​Hatred

by Udånde

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1.
A curriculum A path in existence Limited to a minimum Keeping reality at a distance “Calmness, concentration, discipline and above all; sorting That’s the way forward”* Countless obscenities Seems bearable With all of my (un)necessities When all feels terrible Pierce my heart of flourish hate Knock the walls down See it slowly deflate In blood drown Wrapped in an illusion of self-righteousness Fueled by the absolution within frightfulness I am not a pessimist! I am a realist! * Fuga - Jacob Ejersbo & Morten Alsinger (p. 53)
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Capitol Rails People All alone Overwhelming panicle Maintained by nails Is this lethal? How to get home? Bathing in sweat from my hands Are we there yet by any chance? The great art of an escape Calming the heart back into shape Winters cold embracing the body Ripped of will and clothes
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Heavy thoughts keep haunting All at loss All miswanting Caving in to acknowledge the previous being and expand knowledge This is not a new standard of dissolving, but acting pandered Refusing sense and reason Mind is losing Save this heathen! Consume me and go back Assume me back on track I am fine! In full control Shut up! I am fine
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Shouting intensifies Arguments shoot by The threats are surfacing Aligning desperation Mental taxation Situation darkening Fading away Pure dismay Memory disappears Am I still here? Waking up Make the bleeding stop How did I get here? Feel the pain Slightly going insane Protect me from the fear
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Feeling boneless Levitating Repress of hating Well, it took some time, but now I feel the difference Like a challenging climb No more ignorance I am free Released No idiosyncrasies I am free Released and uncaged
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As time went by everything normalized All so dry and temporarily disguised Tamed by a pill Fear and anger absorbed Fully conscious still Minor disturbed I’m no fool I know, it will stay the same* Was it the tool to become this sane? I feel trapped In my own skin Needless to adapt There is no win All hail Pacil Rex! All hail! Inhale! Exhale!
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The Void 19:42

about

This album is a timeline (2009 – 2022) of private, profound experiences with anxiety attacks, depression and anti-depressant medication.
Each song depicts specific time periods of my existence from which were significant for my previous internal struggles.

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PLEASE NOTE: The tracks “and Try to Keep Calm and Embrace” & “The Void” are only physically available on the 2nd vinyl of the limited edition. However, they can be found on all major streaming services like this one and will therefore be included digitally with every purchase regardless the version purchased.

"The Void" is a drone/noise version of 🜂 originally released on 'Life of a Purist'. One-take recording with bass and effect pedals.

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Lyric video for "and Denied All Sense and Reason": youtu.be/Juu5ynSf-I4

Music video for "I’m Not a Pessimist, I’m a Realist":
youtu.be/ugRdcFoZaZ4

credits

released December 2, 2022

All songs and lyrics written and recorded by Rasmus Ejlersen
Guitars, bass and vocals recorded by Rasmus Ejlersen

Drums recorded by Martin Barla (Sound engineer) in Poprad, Slovakia
Mixed and Mastered by Patrick McDowall (Spectral Wound) in Montreal, Canada

Banner Art by Emil Underbjerg
www.emilunderbjerg.dk

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